an entry at last

Suddenly, I'm scared to write.

Scared for I might say the things that I'm not supposed to. Scared that someone might be reading this and he or she is not supposed to. Or maybe, it has been too long when I felt this, experienced this, that I'm not sure how to compose myself and act properly on these kind of situations.

"Grace under pressure." You will learn this in college. But how can I apply this in real life? I'm not sure... How can i act, move, speak, or influence if I know that there is something bothering me. When everything is moving as planned, when I thought everything is in it's proper place, something gets disarrayed. Now, I'm out of focus, and the plans seem to be vague.

But even with these things at hand, there are some pieces that seem to improve. The people who stayed prove that nothing will change. Not time, distance, or death will ever change what you have. These people are what you commonly call friends and family.

For those who left, well, thank you for the time spent and the memories that will be treasured. Even how painful goodbye is, you know that you can't erase memories, you can't change what happened. But you can be happy in the long run. This is where we move on. Yes, it might be a difficult job to replace someone important, someone who already marked your life, your heart. But, you can always treasure the lessons and learn from the mistakes. Now, more than ever, you should know how to take care of someone, how to show your appreciation, and importance. If you care, love, or whatever you might feel for another, show it. This might be the only time you have to do so. Regrets are the most painful things you will ever feel. Especially when you knew that things would have been different, IF ONLY you acted differently.

And for the people who becomes a new part of my life, let us see how things would go. Uncertainties, problems, difficulties are given scenarios. But we can always prove that we know better now, and we can make this through- together. :)


So life continues.

Choose to be happy.

-chin-